Day 68 - Still Here

Day 68 and I haven't died, fell over or been harmed in any way! Just goes to show if you work hard it will work out. I have for the last 68 days watched carefully what I put in my mouth and if I ate something I shouldn't; Took note, but did not beat myself up. This approach has been much better for me mentally, I don't get discouraged and just quit.

Now that does not mean that I have given myself permission to go off plan anytime I feel like it or when temptation is staring me in the face. As a fellow blogger has noted so many times you must put the fork down and not partake. I think of myself like a drug addict - so the campaign slogan comes to mind Just say NO!

Took a call today for my pre-cert on the surgery. Talk about scaring the daylights out of you. The questions really make you think about your mortality. And it brings to the forefront why I need to lose more weight, it's not a game not a thing to be done when I get around to it! One question asked was did I have sleep apnea. Was a really good feeling to say I did 10 years ago but lost the weight needed to come off the C-Pap machine!!! It was a motivator let me tell you - the machine drove me nuts, every night in my sleep I would take it off, turn the machine off and hang the mask neatly on my bed post! All while asleep. The day I realized I had lost enough not to need the machine was indeed a happy day for me!! Not going back to that!!!

My time out of the gym has begun, since they won't pro-rate the membership fee for you to be out, yet will waive it for a month with Dr note. I had to do this. But it does not mean I will stop moving, doing the walk tonight and every night until surgery and as soon after as I am allowed.

Did anyone watch my Vols lose Saturday? It was such a heartbreaking loss for those poor boys that played so hard!!! I will admit our team did the penalty but why oh why!!!!!

Later, TL